It haunts me endlessly how one thing can mess everything up so much. I shouldn’t go on about it though. But it’s haunting, knowing that a good thing all messed up now, which you never even in your wildest thoughts predicted would happen. All I can do is hope that things will perhaps get better. And oh do I hope.
Something has been bothering me a lot lately, unrelated. But I know the wise thing to do is keep my mouth shut and let life go on.
I have this urge to go out and do something wild and crazy, but I know I’d probably regret it. It’s a stupid urge anyway, just me going crazy inside my head. Further drive to try and un-become me, I suppose, so I shouldn’t listen, or so it seems.
Just for the record – I’m about to make a big mistake I will probably regret forever, but hey, I managed to get myself in to a dilemma again (can’t have a dilemma without emma), so what way is there to get out but a bad way. Cheer me on and swim in my tears, everyone.